Did you ever hit your head, break a fingernail, crash the car etc and wonder why ‘you’ did that to yourself?
Did you ever say to yourself, “You idiot…?”
Do you have self-contempt?
Who is this self that you are caught in a drama with?
Who, really, are you? And into what ambition do you pour your heart? Into whose game do you play?
There is only one you.
You are the one who can register the difference between life and death and choose which direction you will pour your ambition, your will, into; your real and perhaps secretive heart. It might be that you do not even go there with your awareness because it is like “Pandora’s Box” to you, “a can of worms”, and you instead live in a fantasy as Cinderella and Prince Charming.
It is you that is being the one without courage. It is you that tells yourself flattering things. It is you that seeks flattery and all the other escapist fantasies. But it is what you have come to call “my world” and the idea of jumping into a void may be your idea of ‘faith’ or “God” or “Nirvana”. A thing that really smells more of madness “are you insane?” kind of stuff from a rational perspective. And from the experience of society, tends to produce mad fanatics hell-bent on being a “right royal pain in the arse”. Ha ha.
One need not step outside of rationality. It is not something that must be discarded as false mind. It is an area of the brain you know, duh!
Honesty within one’s own belief in good and bad. Reflective moral assessment about what is going on deep in emotions is a return to self-control.
Fantasy becomes a madness if you ever allow it to replace self-consciousness of your intellectual, emotional, and physical reality.
We want you to understand that freedom, power, joy, cosmic alignment are dependent on the Spirit of Courage.
God is divine love. Human love is a shadow of it and a portal to it. Love without courage cannot blossom. Do you have the courage to sit in the presence of your Heavenly Creator Fathers? Do you feel an echo of love? Are you ready to be the innocent child of your Parent’s, to have “all your sins washed away”?
Are you ready to begin rehabilitation?
Self sabotage is not a conscious act. It is just a consequence of short circuits and such malfunctioning of mind and body due to self-contempt. One way to get rid of the contempt is to get rid of the morality from one’s mind. The other way is to actually live full-time in moral consciousness based on the Laws of Life and the experience with perception of divine love. One road leads to Dark Magic. The other leads to cosmic alignment with Infinity.
You want a higher existence.
Become what you were born to become, a human being living in the larger creation of Deity.
Ask for the Presence of our beautiful Creators, not as phantasms, but as real divine Beings listening and feeling.
It doesn’t have to be a huge ecstasy; little ones are the simple walk. Little joys that only you and the community of Gods, Sons of God and angels can appreciate.
You are a Sun of God, a beloved one. You just have been somehow unaware of this inner knowledge. Blanks in ordinary consciousness became almighty shadows and clouds. Ordinary consciousness was eclipsed by subordinary fantasy and became subordinary consciousness. It went under the spell of Darkness.
Are you ready to stand up little sunflower? Are you ready to be all that you can, not merely a powerful mortal of the earth?
Some say yes to the Light, others mimic Him, and some others laugh at Him.
So you grew up and stopped playing “Let’s Pretend”. You are aware of what you are feeling, no longer afraid to be in the emotional reality. Now what?
Now comes true self-awareness and the reawakening of normal but dormant spiritual circuitry through mind and body.
If you keep feeding the fire it will connect with a cosmic fire and you will Light up.
Cosmic Law is Life. Follow the road to Eden. Learn about Eden in the Fifth Epochal Revelation.